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Mentally she is so strong that can hide lots of pain inside her beautiful eyes that are women. It was long back when traveling in train and luck is on my side that got the chance to interact with a lady. Women with big eyes as they have lots of stories in them, women with the big smile but emotions running behind that mask.

A girl when she was so small that unable to speak properly and understand the meaning of parents her parents got separated. It was like a memory of yesterday when she craved for her dad’s love but settle herself with mom after separation.

When small kids have time to watch the cartoon and Barbie life, she forced to go to tuitions and then childhood become the memory of her. All these things make her stronger and tuff inside but how society look towards it? A girl seeking for care and love which she didn’t have in childhood but great society treat it as an opportunity.

Adulthood becomes more dangerous when you’re seeking care and people stab you after becoming friend to you.

A character comes to mind when we talk about strong girl “Mother of Dragons” from “Game of Thrones” what if that girl has the dragon with her? She might destroy whole society with fire after the worst past but she is the beauty with brain and can change the society by her thoughts that are women for you.

Emotions are more or less died inside her and still one thing she keeps missing the care and love which she was expecting from childhood. As Lord Krishna said to believe in your doing and you will get peace one day.

The best person you can trust most is you. Society should be less opportunist as someone seeking care and love, not your lust.

Do emotions speak?

Almost 6 hours passed still the way she put her head on Alex’s shoulder is fresh as the fiddle. They have waited for this day for last one month it like fresh memories when Alex and Annie started their talk and few common interest makes that more interesting for both of them. The hobby of reading and watching web series have increased the span of time for their chat.

I have heard that action speaks louder than words but sometimes emotions make the strongest statements. As the couple having the cup of coffee, Alex keeps looking into eyes of Annie and realized that there is some pain in her heart that is not reflected in her voice.

Time is moving so fast that it being quarter past 6 and it’s being more than 3 hours of togetherness.

Can I hug you? Annie asked Alex and the moment was almost there when emotions run too high that the 3 hours of togetherness turning like we have been knowing each other from ages.

Moments like this comes in everyone’s life and they are made or break moment. We make it for our better future and will try our best to keep each other happy.

Once you start noting the actions or emotion the understanding between couple increase and that what happened with Alex and Annie. Emotions speak louder than the action and it upon an individual to understand it and make the best out it.

Every individual has the past and seeks internal peace time to time. The situation makes us change our individuality sometimes but peace can make us regain our originality.

 

Nuptial Surprise

“Your smile is literally the cutest I have ever seen in my life”

Unclear thought, Unclear past moving forward into the friends wedding after almost losing all the good will and good stuff Alex had in his life. The loss in business and ramping down of it does not stop him from attending Ginny’s wedding physically but mentally 200 million thoughts running through his mind.

Cold breeze day and Ginny is worried obviously wedding decision is not easy for her. I was interacting with her about our journey in the meanwhile heard a voice, Amelia Tall girl with sharp eyes with proper eyeliner, black hairs, and her smiley face her first glance. I have not talked to her much just formal interaction then we move on.

Loud Music, delicious food and winter evening with the worst moves on the beats and after 24 hours she again comes to my sight even more beautiful than the previous time Black attire glowing skin and that black necklace wait Alex does not again stop moving your thoughts the first reaction comes to my mind.

Oh shut up and I move forward to her having some words and no matter what the topic was my eyes were stuck to her lips as she opens her lips to talk and that awesome smile glancing at the beauty is the best thing you can do when you don’t have a topic to talk.  We moved into the bride room and I am trying to know her but Amelia is busy on her phone after spending about 2 hours together, I come to the conclusion that doesn’t try to understand a beautiful girl because you can’t just observe the beauty and shut your idiotic mouth.

Her attire keeps on changing the like the beautiful season from black to green then that white-red combination is like the cherry on the cream cake. Many of the guys in wedding trying to impress her but she don’t know about it and I am not one of them since I am good at judging my capability. No chance to impress the girl like her, boy remember the limits keep telling myself and the funny part is she almost called me brother. Hurt out the moment that was and like the angels go missing in the heaven she went within a span of time.

I came to know she is single and she loves her freedom but for Alex Amelia is unapproachable always.

“Feelings that come back and feel that never left”

Not a Happy ending!!! – part 5

Just when the caterpillar thought that world was over, it becomes butterfly….

7th of January Monday, Jeff text “one of my friends is celebrating his birthday and want you to come, are you willing to come? she said yes. We went to a restaurant and a text comes to her phone “Gm  :*” Jeff asked what is this honey? he is Patrick and teasing me. let me talk to him Jeff said and text that guy “stay in your limit dude” and matter got resolved for that time.

I received an official email – Hi Jeff, Due to business needs and violation of terms of employment, we are terminating your services with immediate effect. It strikes like a missile to me and tears are almost into my eyes then she holds my hand and said it’ okay everything going to be fine soon, I am with you. Jeff asked her “I think you should rethink your decision I am not the same person financially now who can fulfill your dreams. She scolded and said shut up and stop thinking like this.

In order to find a new job and also giving her time started committing mistakes, we went for a movie on 14th of January she paid for the ticket as it was Friday they are too expensive and during the weekend. In the interval, she said I had a conversation with Patrik today and I was upset with this statement started ignoring her for rest of the movie. Then we had an argument in public and then in order to make things good again, we went for lunch with her friend. But her mood was so badly spoiled that I can clearly see that, when I drop her back to her place, saw a tear in her eyes.

Things moved swiftly for a couple of days then on 16th January morning she called me I am back from my classes and just with my friend in 63b street in order to meet her I told her may I come to meet you? she said come, my friend, she is eating ice cream. Okay, I would also eat then 🙂 Jeff replied and went to meet her because she is important than the ice cream.

She was in light blue crop top and denim and looking cute. I talked to her and took ice cream and as it was winter I told her ” you should wear something it’s cold look at your friend even she is wearing and she replied it’s not that cold”. I said is Patrick talked to you she said he is changed and not doing bad things like past. I replied I don’t think he is going to change and give ice cream to her and I am set to leave the place.

Annie said to eat the ice cream or else I will through it and Jeff replied I don’t want to eat.  She then said I don’t like such relationship neither I want such relationship now. Jeff tried hard to make everything good at that time but things started getting worst.

I was expecting that her friend will make her understand the things or make everything good but expectation always hurt.  I called her almost 200 times that day but she does not pick the call.

Jeff went to church and prayed to God at least make her pick the call and the rest coming is all upon you Lord. I called her from the church and this time she picked and then the only thing she said which is still in my head ” it’s over”

It was night time and taste of coffee is still in my mouth in summer. It;s almost 2 more than two months now. I keep repeating the incident at least once in a day and thought what went wrong?

The problem is not that I lost my girlfriend but I lost a friend whom I make the promise I will not leave her.

Happy endings might prevail but not in this story 🙂

Memories that will remain forever – part 4

When there is a relationship there is misunderstanding and when you are mature enough to handle that then only enter into a relationship this thought always keep my mind as I promised her not to leave in any situation.

It was my birthday and I know she is going to plan something joyful but she was not well that day still being unhealthy she comes and spends whole day with me. She is in pain because of medicines and just to make my day she is smiling and enjoying though I never shared the thoughts with her because she might become emotional because of this. I never got gifts from friends or girlfriend this was the first time in a long span of my life got a gift from a girl and she was damn excited due to that but thoughts keep running in my mind. Did I deserve her because I can’t give her gifts at this time? I tried to refuse the gift but the only thing comes from her mouth dump them or takes them, I am not going to take that back.

We are in a relationship for more than a month now but I always try to impress her and make her feel happy. On new year eve, we planned to go to an old church which is situated which is 60 miles away from our place. We went there and in the whole drive she hugged me and we shared some awesome moments, we prayed together and light up candles for our happiness. We come back and it was new year night at midnight I called her on her phone and in the mean time we both are drunk separately with our friends. She was unable to pick the phone at that time that makes me upset and a bit angry but it because of noise she was not able to hear the phone.

She called back, I replied badly “I am calling you and you were busy with your friends” Jeff I am with my friends but it’s because of noise I am unable to hear the phone call and for your information, I called you to wish new year before my parents Annie replied. Jeff was speechless and tell her Annie I love you .. will you marry me?  She asked “are you serious,” Jeff said yes I am and she said YES I will…

Hence our new year start but who know that happiness going to stay just for a week.

Worth Waiting – part 3

We keep meeting on a regular day from that long drive and try to give time to each other as she like my hobby and I like her without any hobby. From movies to cafe’ and bike without police interfering from now to waiting for her always at her place that was part of jeff life now.

Anni always look sizzling hot and cute although in humor she is almost a kid with the small thing makes her upset to anger for the bad things. I always try to make her happy but why I getting possessive for her alway makes me life bad. When she text I am with Robert he just comes to meet or in a call with him I was okay but that okay has many things inside it.  But that okay has grief, sadness, pain and love for her.

23 November, things usually take the time to move good but in my case, it always makes quick and awesome turns in my life. I was checking her pic on her text messenger and text her “Stop making this sort of DP, okay otherwise I purpose you” I am waiting for your proposal 🙂 she replied.

Can I give you a call right now? jeff asked “yes she said”. As she said hello I asked her are you drunk? and she replied yes. Then we have a conversation for about 30 minutes and in that time I come to know life always play badly with every individual and she has already suffered a lot in her life till now because of love and due to which she afraid to come into love again. I tried to calm her down and told “I won’t leave you for sure if either you become my girlfriend or not. She asked are you sure about that you won’t leave me? Jeff replied Yes Baby 😉