Master of your own emotions!

When your soul & mind seeks for peace and unable to sleep whole night; accusation made by the person whom you loved so much for unable to understand the situation.

When we look at the ancient history of our country we saw many examples of perfect couples as Ram and Sita and at the same time, the understanding they have is well known to us either it’s about Agni pariksha or Lakshman Rekha. In each of this difficult time, you can see the level of understanding with that amount of responsibility they have while taking a decision in life.

We dreamt a lot and planned for our future and then after few months she came up with new things “Time”.  Personal life is the course of an individual’s life, especially when viewed as the sum of personal choices contributing to one’s personal identity. Lack of time management can lead to this situation when an individual looks at the time as a reason for the ending a relationship.

“Freedom” The power or right to act, speak or think as one wants. Did that mean you can talk to whoever knowing the fact it’s not good for you? This comes into picture when either your parents or girlfriend or boyfriend try to give advice on some serious issues. I do remember mom told me to study while I want to watch a movie and that moment the word came into my mind is freedom; since she loved me a lot keep saying the same until I start studies.

What if I could have asked her something but let it be I don’t want now –

In the moonlight walking in the park, did you hold the hand of new guy as same you use to hold mine?

On the coffee table with every sip of it, do you explain him whole your life as you explained to me?

On the bike with winds blowing your hairs, do you kiss on his neck as you did on mine?

Once he drops you at your place, do you hug him the same way as you did to me?

Did you share your beautiful picture with him as you did with me?

Are you going to play with his emotions as you played with mine?

Will you?

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Not a Happy ending!!! – part 5

Just when the caterpillar thought that world was over, it becomes butterfly….

7th of January Monday, Jeff text “one of my friends is celebrating his birthday and want you to come, are you willing to come? she said yes. We went to a restaurant and a text comes to her phone “Gm  :*” Jeff asked what is this honey? he is Patrick and teasing me. let me talk to him Jeff said and text that guy “stay in your limit dude” and matter got resolved for that time.

I received an official email – Hi Jeff, Due to business needs and violation of terms of employment, we are terminating your services with immediate effect. It strikes like a missile to me and tears are almost into my eyes then she holds my hand and said it’ okay everything going to be fine soon, I am with you. Jeff asked her “I think you should rethink your decision I am not the same person financially now who can fulfill your dreams. She scolded and said shut up and stop thinking like this.

In order to find a new job and also giving her time started committing mistakes, we went for a movie on 14th of January she paid for the ticket as it was Friday they are too expensive and during the weekend. In the interval, she said I had a conversation with Patrik today and I was upset with this statement started ignoring her for rest of the movie. Then we had an argument in public and then in order to make things good again, we went for lunch with her friend. But her mood was so badly spoiled that I can clearly see that, when I drop her back to her place, saw a tear in her eyes.

Things moved swiftly for a couple of days then on 16th January morning she called me I am back from my classes and just with my friend in 63b street in order to meet her I told her may I come to meet you? she said come, my friend, she is eating ice cream. Okay, I would also eat then 🙂 Jeff replied and went to meet her because she is important than the ice cream.

She was in light blue crop top and denim and looking cute. I talked to her and took ice cream and as it was winter I told her ” you should wear something it’s cold look at your friend even she is wearing and she replied it’s not that cold”. I said is Patrick talked to you she said he is changed and not doing bad things like past. I replied I don’t think he is going to change and give ice cream to her and I am set to leave the place.

Annie said to eat the ice cream or else I will through it and Jeff replied I don’t want to eat.  She then said I don’t like such relationship neither I want such relationship now. Jeff tried hard to make everything good at that time but things started getting worst.

I was expecting that her friend will make her understand the things or make everything good but expectation always hurt.  I called her almost 200 times that day but she does not pick the call.

Jeff went to church and prayed to God at least make her pick the call and the rest coming is all upon you Lord. I called her from the church and this time she picked and then the only thing she said which is still in my head ” it’s over”

It was night time and taste of coffee is still in my mouth in summer. It;s almost 2 more than two months now. I keep repeating the incident at least once in a day and thought what went wrong?

The problem is not that I lost my girlfriend but I lost a friend whom I make the promise I will not leave her.

Happy endings might prevail but not in this story 🙂

Yet Again!!!?

​It’s hard to believe you are not mine, it’s hard to digest now you are not beside
The moment we cherish will always remain in limelight, the problems we have will sink at the bottom of life.
Bike ride holding me tight, fear of police in your eyes will cherish every moment in my life

From movies to food, you always hold the ground high,

From birthday to weekends you always gave your best side.

Nothing I will have except the memories and fun we had,

Nothing we achieve to sour and heel the pain for more,
It’s hard to believe you are not mine,  it’s hard to digest now you are not beside

Life is so unrealistic no matter what you thought, I have to accept the split so soon

In the short span of time, we have we saw every crucial part of life,

it’s still hard to believe you are not mine.