Master of your own emotions!

When your soul & mind seeks for peace and unable to sleep whole night; accusation made by the person whom you loved so much for unable to understand the situation.

When we look at the ancient history of our country we saw many examples of perfect couples as Ram and Sita and at the same time, the understanding they have is well known to us either it’s about Agni pariksha or Lakshman Rekha. In each of this difficult time, you can see the level of understanding with that amount of responsibility they have while taking a decision in life.

We dreamt a lot and planned for our future and then after few months she came up with new things “Time”.  Personal life is the course of an individual’s life, especially when viewed as the sum of personal choices contributing to one’s personal identity. Lack of time management can lead to this situation when an individual looks at the time as a reason for the ending a relationship.

“Freedom” The power or right to act, speak or think as one wants. Did that mean you can talk to whoever knowing the fact it’s not good for you? This comes into picture when either your parents or girlfriend or boyfriend try to give advice on some serious issues. I do remember mom told me to study while I want to watch a movie and that moment the word came into my mind is freedom; since she loved me a lot keep saying the same until I start studies.

What if I could have asked her something but let it be I don’t want now –

In the moonlight walking in the park, did you hold the hand of new guy as same you use to hold mine?

On the coffee table with every sip of it, do you explain him whole your life as you explained to me?

On the bike with winds blowing your hairs, do you kiss on his neck as you did on mine?

Once he drops you at your place, do you hug him the same way as you did to me?

Did you share your beautiful picture with him as you did with me?

Are you going to play with his emotions as you played with mine?

Will you?

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Do emotions speak?

Almost 6 hours passed still the way she put her head on Alex’s shoulder is fresh as the fiddle. They have waited for this day for last one month it like fresh memories when Alex and Annie started their talk and few common interest makes that more interesting for both of them. The hobby of reading and watching web series have increased the span of time for their chat.

I have heard that action speaks louder than words but sometimes emotions make the strongest statements. As the couple having the cup of coffee, Alex keeps looking into eyes of Annie and realized that there is some pain in her heart that is not reflected in her voice.

Time is moving so fast that it being quarter past 6 and it’s being more than 3 hours of togetherness.

Can I hug you? Annie asked Alex and the moment was almost there when emotions run too high that the 3 hours of togetherness turning like we have been knowing each other from ages.

Moments like this comes in everyone’s life and they are made or break moment. We make it for our better future and will try our best to keep each other happy.

Once you start noting the actions or emotion the understanding between couple increase and that what happened with Alex and Annie. Emotions speak louder than the action and it upon an individual to understand it and make the best out it.

Every individual has the past and seeks internal peace time to time. The situation makes us change our individuality sometimes but peace can make us regain our originality.

 

Couple goals

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Freedom is what every one of us looking for however every doing either it is right or wrong linked by freedom.

The strange change that can be clearly observed while checking out the social media that freedom can be express in pictures too and that too when couples kiss and post it and of course the majority of them are below 17. Either 90’s kid too long to grow them self or next generation is super-fast.

Back to my college day, I do still remember the conversation had with my sports office about love, affection. The reason behind this conversation was one of our team players told management that he wants his girlfriend to be part of every match as she is his lucky charm.

As every sports teacher in this world is strict so as mine, he is fumed by lucky charm thing and told that this thing won’t work in sports as I countered him, sir, they both love each other and in past also we have seen this player performance at the top whenever she is in stands.

After minutes of silence.

Look, son, there are 3 stages of love with this statement sir begin to explain the stages

  1. Before marriage – This can be called immaturity or attraction or curiosity of getting physical with someone and 90% of people fall into this trap considering that it’s their true love.
  2. After marriage – The moment everything is well you are trying to understand each other and actually you don’t have any option other than fall in love for the person
  3. After Kids – The sense of maturity, understanding, and emotions still present between you and your wife after having kids believe me then only you can say that is true love.

What is said may be correct or not but once the things are done then you cannot rectify.

Couple goals that terminology that does not have significance when my parents got married that only thing value that time is trust, understanding and emotional support that is more important than the couple goals post which we keep seeing nowadays.

Here I am not talking about ethics or culture but just for saying a couple below 17 years posting their kissing picture on social media keeping hashtags and keeping fighting over the call then that sort of goals are below standards.

Then again words of sir come in mind may be the 90% are doing the same thing but hold for a second and again think once things are posted on social media then you can’t rectify it.

Thing is getting change but for me couple goal will be hold on…………………………………..

 

I am not going to share that on social media 😉

Nuptial Surprise

“Your smile is literally the cutest I have ever seen in my life”

Unclear thought, Unclear past moving forward into the friends wedding after almost losing all the good will and good stuff Alex had in his life. The loss in business and ramping down of it does not stop him from attending Ginny’s wedding physically but mentally 200 million thoughts running through his mind.

Cold breeze day and Ginny is worried obviously wedding decision is not easy for her. I was interacting with her about our journey in the meanwhile heard a voice, Amelia Tall girl with sharp eyes with proper eyeliner, black hairs, and her smiley face her first glance. I have not talked to her much just formal interaction then we move on.

Loud Music, delicious food and winter evening with the worst moves on the beats and after 24 hours she again comes to my sight even more beautiful than the previous time Black attire glowing skin and that black necklace wait Alex does not again stop moving your thoughts the first reaction comes to my mind.

Oh shut up and I move forward to her having some words and no matter what the topic was my eyes were stuck to her lips as she opens her lips to talk and that awesome smile glancing at the beauty is the best thing you can do when you don’t have a topic to talk.  We moved into the bride room and I am trying to know her but Amelia is busy on her phone after spending about 2 hours together, I come to the conclusion that doesn’t try to understand a beautiful girl because you can’t just observe the beauty and shut your idiotic mouth.

Her attire keeps on changing the like the beautiful season from black to green then that white-red combination is like the cherry on the cream cake. Many of the guys in wedding trying to impress her but she don’t know about it and I am not one of them since I am good at judging my capability. No chance to impress the girl like her, boy remember the limits keep telling myself and the funny part is she almost called me brother. Hurt out the moment that was and like the angels go missing in the heaven she went within a span of time.

I came to know she is single and she loves her freedom but for Alex Amelia is unapproachable always.

“Feelings that come back and feel that never left”

Not a Happy ending!!! – part 5

Just when the caterpillar thought that world was over, it becomes butterfly….

7th of January Monday, Jeff text “one of my friends is celebrating his birthday and want you to come, are you willing to come? she said yes. We went to a restaurant and a text comes to her phone “Gm  :*” Jeff asked what is this honey? he is Patrick and teasing me. let me talk to him Jeff said and text that guy “stay in your limit dude” and matter got resolved for that time.

I received an official email – Hi Jeff, Due to business needs and violation of terms of employment, we are terminating your services with immediate effect. It strikes like a missile to me and tears are almost into my eyes then she holds my hand and said it’ okay everything going to be fine soon, I am with you. Jeff asked her “I think you should rethink your decision I am not the same person financially now who can fulfill your dreams. She scolded and said shut up and stop thinking like this.

In order to find a new job and also giving her time started committing mistakes, we went for a movie on 14th of January she paid for the ticket as it was Friday they are too expensive and during the weekend. In the interval, she said I had a conversation with Patrik today and I was upset with this statement started ignoring her for rest of the movie. Then we had an argument in public and then in order to make things good again, we went for lunch with her friend. But her mood was so badly spoiled that I can clearly see that, when I drop her back to her place, saw a tear in her eyes.

Things moved swiftly for a couple of days then on 16th January morning she called me I am back from my classes and just with my friend in 63b street in order to meet her I told her may I come to meet you? she said come, my friend, she is eating ice cream. Okay, I would also eat then 🙂 Jeff replied and went to meet her because she is important than the ice cream.

She was in light blue crop top and denim and looking cute. I talked to her and took ice cream and as it was winter I told her ” you should wear something it’s cold look at your friend even she is wearing and she replied it’s not that cold”. I said is Patrick talked to you she said he is changed and not doing bad things like past. I replied I don’t think he is going to change and give ice cream to her and I am set to leave the place.

Annie said to eat the ice cream or else I will through it and Jeff replied I don’t want to eat.  She then said I don’t like such relationship neither I want such relationship now. Jeff tried hard to make everything good at that time but things started getting worst.

I was expecting that her friend will make her understand the things or make everything good but expectation always hurt.  I called her almost 200 times that day but she does not pick the call.

Jeff went to church and prayed to God at least make her pick the call and the rest coming is all upon you Lord. I called her from the church and this time she picked and then the only thing she said which is still in my head ” it’s over”

It was night time and taste of coffee is still in my mouth in summer. It;s almost 2 more than two months now. I keep repeating the incident at least once in a day and thought what went wrong?

The problem is not that I lost my girlfriend but I lost a friend whom I make the promise I will not leave her.

Happy endings might prevail but not in this story 🙂

Worth Waiting – part 3

We keep meeting on a regular day from that long drive and try to give time to each other as she like my hobby and I like her without any hobby. From movies to cafe’ and bike without police interfering from now to waiting for her always at her place that was part of jeff life now.

Anni always look sizzling hot and cute although in humor she is almost a kid with the small thing makes her upset to anger for the bad things. I always try to make her happy but why I getting possessive for her alway makes me life bad. When she text I am with Robert he just comes to meet or in a call with him I was okay but that okay has many things inside it.  But that okay has grief, sadness, pain and love for her.

23 November, things usually take the time to move good but in my case, it always makes quick and awesome turns in my life. I was checking her pic on her text messenger and text her “Stop making this sort of DP, okay otherwise I purpose you” I am waiting for your proposal 🙂 she replied.

Can I give you a call right now? jeff asked “yes she said”. As she said hello I asked her are you drunk? and she replied yes. Then we have a conversation for about 30 minutes and in that time I come to know life always play badly with every individual and she has already suffered a lot in her life till now because of love and due to which she afraid to come into love again. I tried to calm her down and told “I won’t leave you for sure if either you become my girlfriend or not. She asked are you sure about that you won’t leave me? Jeff replied Yes Baby 😉

 

Outset!!! she arrived – part 1

Sunny day and humid condition Jeff is seating in the lawn of his rented house and with the sip of coffee enjoying the evening. Seating alone always makes thoughts come to his mind and he is again thinking about the same incident that winter morning in a short span of time changes all the things in his life.

November 9 a request pour into the facebook and he read the name, Annie and without hesitation, he accepts the request because she was her schoolmate and started talking to her  sharing all the memories and revising the school time and then he come to know the Annie is living in the same area 62B street and amazing fact living in the same area from last 2 years both have not meet.

Jeff with all curiosity checks Annie’s facebook timeline and saw the sudden transformation of a school girl to a beauty and impact of modernization and that was really impressive as jeff trying to talk in a normal manner like an old schoolmate and got her contact number within 3 hours then he went for work but before that he ask her when you are coming back? we will meet ? she said I will be there after 15 days and yes of course 🙂

Working on the project but her image keeps coming inside his mind and reflecting the thoughts that god is hinting something by bringing an almost stranger to come in your life after almost 12 years or more.  He moved that thought away and let her be friend don’t keep your head work for doing such thing which is impossible. Look at yourself, you don’t deserve her.